Nicki Minaj‘s new three-part E! reality series My Truth has been touted as an inside look at the superstar rapstress’ lifestyle — and indeed, the debut episode, now streaming live, doesn’t disappoint in terms of revealing what it’s like to spend a day as Nicki. In the episode, Minaj hits the studio to a record a track, selects an outfit for her first day of American Idol, arrives to appear on The View, speaks in a fake British accent and promotes her new fragrance. She also presents as a neurotic, endlessly self-deprecating control freak. No wonder she and Mariah Carey butted heads.
Ultimately, though, as much as she seems tightly wound and curt, it’s sorta touching the way she lights up when she sees her fans — and when she describes herself as “a psychopath with good intentions,” at least it proves she’s self-aware. Watch the premiere above.